The Inner Monologue

This time, it’s going to be my holiday, my time.

I am enjoying my two-day vacation leave from work. When I tell my colleagues, friends and my Mom that I am going to be on leave for two days from work, the immediate question thrown to my face is why? My immediate reaction would be, why not? The next question would be, why on a Tuesday and a Wednesday instead for having it on a Monday and Tuesday for an extended weekend, my immediate answer would be, “WHY NOT?!”. Well actually it is because it is the only slot left. And it is better this way.

From my post Lost Connection, I really felt I really lost the connection with the outside world. I mean, no primetime tv watching at night, no Chelsea Lately on a Tuesday-Saturday basis. I sleep all day and work all night. I know, I know. I am having a lot of fun on my work and the people around me but I just miss the old times when I used to bond with old friends every night, even the dinner talks and all that stuff. To go to my favorite mall - ALONE and just look some stuff that I would think a hundred times before buying them. To go to the movie house -ALONE which made me appreciate the movies more rather than being with a crowd of friends. I know, I’m weird. Haha!

What happened or will happened on Day 1?

I went home around, 7AM I think. Grab a breakfast on McDonalds and played Diane’s PSP while she’s sound a sleep. I am very much excited on what I am going to do for today. So I woke-up around 3 in the afternoon and I decided that I would like to go to one of the computer shop that I used to go to when I was still in college. Its nice to bring the old memories back. Enough of the drama.

After this, I think I have to go to the mall and fill my Kelly Green Crocs with pseudo-Jibbitz. Nine holes left! For today, I just want to relive again the moment where-in a used to have dinner with Diane, Dubby and Ate Sheena and talk all night long.

It sucks seeing that my last post for my blog was the 30th of August. I am very busy with work that I started feeling that I lost my connection with my Inner Monologue…

I am talking literally and figuratively…

For a heads up, let me go ahead and explain to you how pre-occuppied I am with my day.

• One of the many wacky team breakfast moments that happened in Pancake House.

Normally, when I wake up in the afternoon - not in the morning, around 5 in the afternoon. I will find myself alone in our little room. Go in the shower and fix myself and go straight to McDonalds and grab a dinner. The only time that I do inner monologue-ing is when I am riding the fx on my way to work. That’s the only time that I think on what are my action plans for the day - or should I mean for the night. It’s like breather. When I am already in the office what I will do is too pull up all the tools that I need after that I will join my friends in the pantry or in the smoking area which doesn’t mean that I smoke. I just love hearing their funny stories. And it will not end just when their cigarettes reached their end of life because there’s the power of instant messaging, lunch breaks, huddles, early taho moments and team breakfast. That’s what I look forward to go in the office every shift.  After that, I’d go home and take my breakfast in a fastfood chain called McDonalds and go home and talk to my “live-in partners” and fix myself, turn-on the alarm and recharge myself for another crazy night that awaits me when I wake up.

I have been part of three email blasts for the what I personally call Hall of Shits. Haha! But I learned my lesson and I am trying my very best to redeem myself by getting a positive result this month of October. Not for other people to be proud of me because I am not that type but I need to prove to myself that I am better today that what I did yesterday, the other day, the last week, the last month, whatever.

Praying for RCA and no more Hall of Shame email blasts, better QA scores. Haha! Well, besides that. There are million things that I think of that no one would ever think that I think that way. That’s the time that I realized that I am a serious person.

Enough of this for today…

I have something to confess on my next post but I am still thinking if I am going to post it or not or if I am going to make money out of it. So better if you will watch out for that. *grining*